SEX AND THE VIRGIN
Sex could
refer to the gender of an individual; it could also refer to the core
foundation of all human beings’ psychological issues. Anne’s virginity didn’t
seem so important to her until Rock tried to make her lose it. Anne thought
about the struggle she would go through if she had lost her virginity, she thought it would be
the most excruciating one yet…She thought about the look on her mother’s eyes
if she told her, she felt that the whole world would be pointing fingers at
her, she thought she might even lose her identity...
Throughout her childhood and her adolescence,
Anne was trained to appreciate her private body and keep it treasured and safe.
The idea was simple; having sex the wrong way with the wrong person can lead to
all sorts of wrong events. The risk might include: unwanted pregnancy, STD
(sexually transmitted disease), and the worst of them all a “Fdei7a” (Lebanese
for embarrassment), or at least that’s what her mother said.
Anne was
only 14 when her mother dwelled on sexual sophistication. She explained: “the
risk is simply not worth it, for only a few minutes of pleasure that is it if
you get any…” When Anne asked her mother, “how do I know when the right time
and who is the right man”, her mother simply replied “you would be married, and
he would be your lawful husband!”
As Anne’s
sexual lust grew along with her age, she became rather more flexible with the
idea of sex that her mother already implemented. As she became 18, her untold
thoughts were that she doesn’t necessarily need to jump into the fire, but she
could, and will, dance around it. She thought to herself everyone cares about
what is seemingly there, but no one will know the details. She was ready to
have some fun, as long as her treasured virginity remains the same!
Rock was the
definition of fun to Anne now. He was charming, and she was charmed! He picked
her up at 7, in his Escalade and as she climbed in, he complimented her saying
“Psshhhhh, shu hal 7elo” (a Lebanese compliment). When he asked where she
wanted to go, she replied “Surprise me”, and that’s exactly what he did!
Half an hour
later, Anne found herself in Faraya (a Lebanese Ski Area). She wanted to seem
as bold as she could even though she was terribly nervous as he took her to his
chalet. It was a very chic Chalet with two fireplaces, and leather couches.
They sat down for a while and chatted while having Spanish white wine. Rock
started telling Anne about every near-death experience he had, and elaborated
on every manly macho thing he ever did. The young and naive Anne was of course
impressed.
After Rock
finished his showing off, he came close to Anne and said: “Do you know what
tastes good with wine”, charmed Anne innocently replied: “Cheese?” Rock laughed
and said: “No…My lips”. Before Anne could react the two were already making
out, it was the most exhilarating kiss ever! (Even though she was only kissed
once before). Anne’s body was automatically moving towards Rock’s, she was too
excited for her own good, and she felt as if she was born to kiss Rock. At this
moment Anne didn’t care about her mother, religion, or society…Anne was slowly
giving in!
By now, Rock
was moving from Anne’s lips to her neck as his hands started exploring Anne’s
body. Anne couldn’t open her eyes; she was having the time of her life. She
breathed heavily as his hands moved up and down her lustful body. She wanted
him…she wanted him bad! As Anne’s mouth grew dry, and her legs started
shivering, Rock whispered to her ears: “let’s go to the bedroom!”
Suddenly
everything fell apart. Anne just stared
at Rock, this was her wakeup call! She said that she was fine where they are, and
that she actually “wasn’t feeling so good” and that she wanted to go home. Anne’s
lust turned to fear!
Anne felt
like a 5 year old toddler that had just lost her mother in the market. She was
terrified of the idea that she is stuck with a stranger away from home in his
Chalet. The “very much horny” Rock replied by saying: “I can make you feel
better baby”, while caressing Anne’s neck and sticking his hand down Anne’s pants.
Anne was terrified
now, she pushed him away and said “No, I want to go home” …Of course Rock was
now mad as hell, for Anne just killed his buzz. He started saying atrocious things
to Anne. He asked her why she agreed to come to the chalet if she didn’t want
him, and then accused her of acting all elegant and charming when she is just a
scared little girl! Anne looked down and apologized to Rock explaining that she
didn’t know this was going to happen. Rock then rolled his eyes and said “Com’on
I’ll take you home, so you could sleep next to your teddy bear and be safe”.
The ride
back home was the next terrible thing. Rock was driving like a mad man while
talking on the phone with another girl, who apparently agreed to meet him at
her apartment in a few minutes. Then Rock told Anne that he is going to drop
her off at some highway because he was in a hurry, and doesn't want to "waste any more time"!
There she
was, in the middle of nowhere, standing alone and scared. Anne felt as if she
was naked and everyone was staring at her. She was ashamed; she was shocked…She
was a Virgin Hooker!
Suzanne El Wattar
PS: The characters and events of this blog are totally fictional but could be inspired by true events. In this blog I will write about the adventures of Anne’s (the virgin-hooker) dating life while she is struggling between traditions and desires.
Tune in for the next adventure :)
